I have been lying in bed all day. I'm not actually sick, I'm not exactly depressed.
I am anxious about alot of things at the moment - school, money, money, boys in general. Money. And when I get anxious, I get a case of the lazies. A BIG case of the "it's alot more convienient to lay in bed and read all day than it is to get up and clean my room, and brush my teeth, only because once I do the basic necessities, it will mean that I have to address the piles of bills and laundry that are stubbornly growing in various corners around my bedroom," LAZIES.
So, I just stayed in bed. It's been a bit of a habit lately, one that hasn't gotten a hold of me in some time. I got on the computor, and procrastinated a bit more by visiting facebook - where my 'Grey's Anatomy' quote of the day profile box made me remember something that Meredith had once said -
Meredith Grey: "A couple of hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. Never leave that till tomorrow, he said, which you can do today. This is the man who discovered electricity. You think more people would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."
I remembered it, and I feel better, and ready to get back in gear. Bless that Doctor's fictional and insightful little heart.
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